Dear future Special Ed teacher of students with anxiety

Dear future Sepecial Ed teacher of students with anxiety,

I don't know you but here is some advice from a former student with anxiety.

 As I look back at my four years as being diagnosed with anxiety it can be a pain to look back and see all of my bad episodes.

If you have a student with real fears don't tell them that they are stupid. Ok if you know that they are afraid of fire drills don't say that they are stupid. Let me explain.. The start of my junior year I was in panic mode just form years of being in panic over fire drills. The one day I was asking because I was afraid of sound. So my teacher that I had for two years said something along the lines of "I don't care about your stupid fire drill." I Didn't think of it until of the next  year. That was a mistake on that teacher that I now have trust issues. I felt bad for my senior year that I have had trust issues that I was so afraid of taking to my teacher that I was switch to in October 2014.

When you have a great student and you know that they have anxiety or anything, be patient for work to be done. So I was in Geometry class in my junior year. I had had a hard time doing homework, like everyone, but it was a little more difficult for me. So one day in May (Thursday to be exact) I was getting ready for a triathlon. When I was helping my guidance counselor for the trip, my special needs teacher came out in the hall and basically told me what she wrote in my agenda that I don't have my work done, so I got yelled at for not understanding the homework. 

Ok let's say that they are having a panic attack and you say "this is not a game" or "act your grade/age". For one this is totally inappropriate for you to say I had herd this multiple times and it ticked me off. Second if you actually was in my head you might understand how this is inappropriate. Yes I had this by my associate mostly.

Thank you for your time reading this. Hope you are going to be awesome as a special education teacher!!

Kayla 

One hole month since...

It's the 29th of June I'm so happy to be writing and reporting this! I have not had a anxiety attack since I left school!!! I feel proud to say that this is my one month anniversary since I for one am done with highschool and haven't had a attack since. I hope to keep on this path of no attacks! 

Because of Anxiety

Because of Anxiety

Many people feel in the dark

Some people are in jail

Because of Anxiety

Everyone has trust issues

Most don't
Because of Anxiety

The littlest of thing may not get people worked up

Many people with anxiety get panic attacks over the littlest things

Because of Anxiety

Anxiety has a part of everyone mind

Including mine

Because of Anxiety

When I hear the word modified..

So sometimes I get a modified  test, homework and projects. Which I know is the best thing for me because, my hand writing is bad.  Like some of my teachers can't read it.

Last year I took Geometry which was not a bad class, but a lot of writing.  Math is always a lot of hand writing, But Geometry you got to write proofs Which sometimes can be long. I sometimes got modified homework witch was awesome. Good thing I had a associate/teacher in that class or I would be in the hole. 

When the teachers put essays on test, sometimes I can have two or one exempt from the test. Witch is not a bad thing for me. The main teachers may not care for.

Before, I dropped media teach this year, I was talking to the teacher and the first project, he was going to modify for me because it was going to be hard. I had drop that class because it was getting to hard and the teacher goes to fast for me.

Test.. Wait you can use notes?.... and you still get a C or lower?

Most special needs students can use notes for test and quizzes. So most people think ok it's easy to use notes for tests & quizzes. But in realty it's twice as hard for me. I get bad anxiety form test. With my notes and book it is even harder. Why because my brain is damaged from lack of oxygen at birth. I do occasionally study but, I can't get my head to remember stuff I study. Most bigger test I get a C+ or lower.

Easy stuff like a 20 word vocabulary test I can get done in a whole class period. Bigger test like a week if I have trouble with homework.The teachers are kind of supportive with me, but some teachers are not. My associate can get on my case at times (which i do not like) but it is for a good reason.    

When the teacher is talking I Listen to  him/her. Sometimes  I would love to be taking notes while the teacher is talking but when it comes back to test I hardly can read my own writing. That is another reason  why it's so hard to take test some of my notes are taking me.  Most of my notes are copy or by a associate. 

It's time to get a test back in science class, what did I get a F on a whole test! I do not know if I'm studying hard enuf for any kind of test or for that matter my notes?